She's Tiny But Beautiful. Nothing Like the Stamps

In the name of Allah. The Most Gracious. The Most Merciful.

Assalamu'alaikum, everybody!

"It's a lie to think that you're not good enough. It's a lie to think that you're not worth anything. You know, it's scary to know how many girls have eating disorders. It's scary to know how many people actually feel like they're worth nothing. Every single girl right here, right now. I want you to know that YOU. ARE. BEAUTIFUL. And you boys. You da man."

~Nick Vujicic (Motivational Speaker)~

I'm actually surprised that I'm updating right NOW instead of a few days ago considering I'm at the end of my mid semester break. Anyway, I'm off to KL tomorrow and will be in a crap-load of work.

Something occurred to me today. A very close friend of mine asked me a question a few months ago. It was a question that pretty much caught me off guard. We, 2 friends and I, just finished dinner. After sending one of our friends home, we were on our way to send my other friend home. My friend of 12 years asked me a question that I never thought she'd ask.

"Do you think I'm beautiful?"

We were lucky that I didn't swerve off the road. Really caught me off guard. Anyway, I answered......(I'm paraphrasing here)

Beauty is quite a subjective term. Ever heard of "beauty is just skin-deep"? Some people just think beauty as just a pretty face. The physical properties of a person. But what's the point if a person's outer shell is a sight for sore eyes but the inner shell gives an eyesore? Nak senang kata muka lawa tapi perangai macam longkang. Call me old-fashioned and kolot but it's my opinion.

To me, being beautiful is being your true self. Not trying to impress anybody just for the sake of wanting to be accepted.

So anyway, naturally, I told her that of course she's beautiful. It could've been me being biased 'cause we've known each other for a long time but I was telling the truth. People have their own interpretations of beauty, their own way of making themselves the personification of beauty. All I'm saying is stay true to yourself and you know what? To hell with those haters.

;-)

Gotta go and get some work done. Final year, baby!

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: I'm sort of trying to stay awake by doing this post

A Little Bit of Resolve

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, everyone!

The chains of habit are too light to be felt until they're too heavy to be broken

~Warren Buffett~

First of all, Salam Ma'al Hijrah to all my brothers and sisters in Islam. May 1438H be better than 1437H and worse than 1439H (can I say that?).

Building on that, 1437H was quite a rough year. It was sort of a train-wreck from top to bottom, start to finish. Very few occasions to be celebrated. Lots of stress, both necessary AND unnecessary. Even more betrayals and empty promises from people near and dear to me (I may or may NOT be referring to you. So kalo nak terasa, suka hati kau la). I dealt with just about everything causing blood to gush from many orifice, constant sweat on my brow and a waterfall's worth of tears. I failed in many aspects. Professionally, socially and the list goes on. And don't even get me started on educationally. Sooooooooo.. Like I said...

1438H, I will try to do things differently. Things have been going good so far, I guess. Got a bit of a head start thanks to an old friend. So will see how things go. 

I'm just posting this for the sake of doing a new post. In a weird way, I'm a bit half-glad and half-intrigued with the things that happened. It's gonna be interesting this year.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: This week was a setback. In a few weeks maybe?

Movie Review - Suicide Squad

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, y'all!

"We're bad guys. It's what we do"

~Harley Quinn (Suicide Squad)~

I know this is almost 2 weeks overdue but I DID tell you that I'll make a review, didn't I?

Suicide Squad, the worst ever heroes. The hype was on for about 2 years. And you know what? It was all worth it!!

For those of you who watch The Flash and/or Arrow (the latter especially), you'll probably know of Suicide Squad or as it is known officially as "Task Force X". Deadshot (Will Smith), Katana (Karen Fukuhara) and Captain Boomerang (Jai Courtney) have made their presence known to non-to-novice comic book enthusiasts by appearing on television. Even Harley Quinn (Margot Robbie) made a few seconds' cameo. Although, the other "heroes" El Diablo (Jay Hernandez), Killer Croc (Adewale Akinnuoye-Agbaje), Enchantress (Cara Delevingne), Slipknot (Christopher Weiss) and Colonel Rick Flag (Joel Kinnaman) made it known to others that they're part of the squad too.

Basically, the movie's about bad guys who are caught by an organization that deal with the worst criminals. Something bad happens, so Amanda Waller (Viola Davis), head of the organization known as ARGUS decide to setup the group of baddies in a project called "Task Force X".

Will Smith is proof that you just get better with age. His Deadshot portrayal is as badass a bad guy can be. Margot Robbie's Harley Quinn? It's just the perfect blend of hot, hilarious, serious and of course, CRAZY. And you can't mention Harley without mentioning The Clown Prince of Crime..............

Jared Leto played The Joker and I gotta be honest, I was really skeptical when news got out that he got cast as one of the most and probably THE most iconic villain in comic. BUT...with his screen time that I'd like to describe as "more than a cameo but less than a major role", I think he nailed it. I wonder what he can do if he'll be in the future Batman movie. Intriguing stuff, innit?

I know the film's got mixed reviews but most of them are on the positive side last I checked. And here's another one from me.

Guns blazing, bone-tickling and heart strings-pulling. I guess those are the words I use to describe the movie. Who needs heroes, huh? They can just do the good stuff. So find some people who can do both. That's the Suicide Squad alright. The story line builds up quicker and clearer than a certain other DC Comics movie that features a son of Krypton and a billionaire vigilante.

;-)

Will Smith's rugged acting, Margot Robbie's tension-defusing and also Cara as eye candy. Not to mention Jay being El Diablo and seeing Killer Croc on screen. The movie is one to watch.

I'll give an 8/10

On a much more depressing note, I've started my final year as a college student. That sentence alone pretty much says it all. I know, I'll miss it when I start working but everything's so hectic, it's insane. I feel like bashing my head through walls. Going back in the morning. I got some work to get done.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: This week alone, 5 of my friends got married. One of them is my junior

Appreciate Every Mix Tape Your Friends Make

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Assalamu'alaikum, y'all!

"I absolutely love meeting people. Fascinating ones, of course, but always remain their modesty. They never fail you with words and actions. Their eloquence is breathtaking and they leave you undone but with happiness. Absolutely no regrets. Their intelligence is beyond words. Their sincerity kills evil and it's inspiring. To be surrounded by these kind of people is really motivating me to stay positive and move about, doing amazing things."

~Syahira Naimi~

It's been a while since I last updated. I think about a month a half-ish. Been really lacking in ideas. And also...This!!!

Finished my internship at SIRIM. While others in UTM are back in class, my batch in KL have the week off! But I ain't stopping. Have some more stuff to do. Anyway, I've been quite dry of ideas. Hence, the lack of posts.

HOWEVER

Literally a few hours ago, I found this tweet on my Twitter feed.

Tbh, I think of that almost everyday. Especially when I feel like I've been wronged, like someone did something bad to me. And you know what? I'm not having it. A person should know that he/she has left a mark on at least SOMEONE.

By the way, I have to black out her name for privacy reasons. So let's just call her Hanali.

And so the story starts.......

I just got back from work. This was during my internship. I was just scrolling down my Instagram TL then I saw Hanali's post. She checked in and I noticed that her uni is near my house. One thing led to another, we had a deal meet up for dinner since I'm occupied at work in the daytime.

I drove to pick her up. Her campus is huge. Ok? Ginormous. If you rarely go in, like me (I've been in there just twice for the past 10 years), you will get lost. So naturally, I asked her to send me her location through whatsapp. Sure enough, I went to the place. Bagai nk rak aku cari budak ni. Haha! Then she said her hostel is farther away. After LOL-ing for a few minutes, I decided to find a landmark which was the health center.

We were so excited to see each other when she finally found my car. Mind you, the last time we saw each other was early 2009. After that, it was all online. That was over 7 years ago, ok? Boleh tahan la lama dia tu. Anyway, at the time I honestly didn't know any place near her place that's not crowded with college students. Haha! So we had to go a bit far to a place where I know they make good char kuey tiow.

The place was quiet even though it was still early and it was like we have the whole place to ourselves. We talked about a lot of things. Of course la, over 7 years tak jumpa kan. Among the things we talked about was our education. I told her basically everything about my infamous failed plan on continuing my degree overseas. As it turned out, our place of interest was the same. Whattaya know? We talked about friends (bukan mengumpat! I mean the old days) and family. Of life and love. How we're growing up too damn fast. It was fun catching up with an old friend, slowing down the fast-paced life we're living in now.

As Hanali and I were chatting, I noticed the staff sweeping and mopping. It was our cue to go.

A fact about me: If I go out with a girl, regardless of who it is, I'll open the car door for her. If there are more than one, I'll try but it'll be hard.

Sure enough, I opened the car door for Hanali and she sort of squeaked and got excited. Haha!

Before you guys get any ideas, just read the next picture CAREFULLY....

Chivalry isn't dead

And this is exactly what I told Hanali. Ladies, there are guys out there who are good. They might not have the looks, the cash, the height (and yes I'm in that 1%) but these are the people who you should give chances too. Prove me wrong. But hey, if you still wanna go out with massive tools and friendzone the guy who would actually treat you right and still ask "why isn't there a good guy any more?" or "all guys are the same", be my guest.

Anywho, I dropped Hanali at her hostel and went home.

There you go. A full memoir of what happened on that night from the eyes of someone who would always cherish a friend and remember the people he knows.

(I didn't know him that well even though we did our diploma in KL and I will regret that but at least I'll remember you for how you recited His Verses)

I always thought about how me being gone will affect people. Some might just shed one single tear. Some might just shrug it off. Bila kawan kita dh tak de, jgn baru nak menyesal tak itu tak ini. He/she won't be there to listen to you.

On a much lighter note, I saw Suicide Squad today. Yay me! Review coming up hopefully. Busy week.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: So you have wished it, so shall it be XD

Search and Destroy

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Assalamu’alaikum, everybody!

Hope it’s not too late to say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all you beautiful people. At least what few that STILL read this anyway. A lot’s been happening, guys. A lot. Some of them are slightly confidential so that’s a no go on that. One thing’s for sure though: I’m SOOOOOO glad the semester’s over! I know it’s been over a month since I finished the semester but still…The relief is like holding it in for hours till you find a bathroom.

Stress nk mampos tau x?!!

Mana x stressnya? Killer subjects ada 3, all 3 subjects ada kena buat project. And there’s this one subject, they made it like a competition. Build a robot to climb a bunch of stairs. Japanese and English classes AND assignments AND projects lagi. That’s not even the best part. Almost all of the projects have to be submitted the week before our finals. Mind you, we don’t have a study week. I’ll get to that later. By the time we submitted our last assignment, I’m telling you, it was like having a boulder lifted off of our shoulders. Sort of… Exam habis baru rasa lega.

I’m currently doing my industrial training/practical. So goodbye, semester break. Which is why we didn’t have a study week. The only upside from this is that the place is really near my house.

I hope all of this is worth it. Don’t get me wrong, a good education IS important. I just think the things students do ALONG the way to get that friggin’ scroll is more often than not ridiculous. I guess it’s inevitable eh?

Already 1 days of Raya. Time goes by really quick, innit? Pejam celik, puasa. Pejam celik, raya. Makes you think though..At least it makes ME think. What plans do I have next? Kalau nak ikutkan I have my plans already. Nak execute tu je can be a real pain in the arse. I say that because we’re gonna have to sacrifice a lot of stuff. I prayed and asked for something once..And it was a long time ago…

True story…

At the time, I was in a rough place, a particularly hard time in my short almost-23-years. A position where some of them were self-inflicted but most of them were results of people inflicting them ON me. So the “true story” part is that I prayed and asked to be away from my enemies. To let my enemies steer clear away from me as far as possible. Then you know what happened?

I lost some friends. I don’t mean lost macam ada yang mati. I mean we just drifted. And some of them did things. Things that you never thought could happen to you. Things you never thought THEY would do to you.

(X sure kalau ada yang terasa sebab I doubt people read here anymore but if ada yang terasa, lantak la. I might not be talking about you pun).

And so my circle of friends turned into a semicircle. Then it morphed to a size of a slice of pie. Now it’s more like a small dot. And later it just dawned on me: Those enemies I asked to steer clear away from me earlier were my friends.

To quote Gabriel Iglesias, “I’m a decent guy. I’m not great, I’m not terrible. I’m decent”. I love meeting people. And I like listening to people’s stories. It helps me in many ways. Sometimes I’m not sure if I should be picky in the friends department. What I’m trying to say is, sometimes sacrificing certain things are unavoidable. In my case, I never thought I was gonna sacrifice ties with people. Nak buat mcm mana kan? Have to wait and find what’s in store then.

Could be something unexpected. Since the latest occurrence was MYSELF doing the unexpected – and it just blew up in my face – I’m gonna wait and just hope for the best.

I got one more year of studying. Haishhh. -____________-“

Anyway, I’m sort of halfway through my industrial training. Sikit je lagi. I’ve done half. I can do another half. Let’s do this!

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: There’s no reason we can’t civil

The Story So Far

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum

I'm gonna make this post quite short and straight forward since I still got some assignments to do and I wanna take a break for a bit.

At the end of my 3rd year of getting an engineering degree now. So starting from 10th June 2016, I'll have only one year to complete my degree. That is if I don't have any subjects I have to repeat or any other complications. Minta jauh la daripada benda-benda macam tu.

I've been in UTM KL for exactly 5 years now. My 3 years diploma here was alright I guess. But I'm telling you, last week was a whirlwind. It's like all the 5 years being crammed into ONE week and then some. No BS. I had like 2 presentations, 3 tests, a few projects and some assignments. And I had to find a supervisor for my final year project (Alhamdulillah, I found a supervisor). I almost had no sleep. Literally. I went almost 24 hours without sleep.

Some of my freinds/group members saw me smiling and laughing. But they just didn't know. At least they didn't think I was being serious when I said that I feel like going insane.

It was a mentally, physically and emotionally draining week for me. I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell. I wanted to lash out. I wanted to bash someone's head into a wall. Anyone's head. That was how unstable I was.

I was on the brink of insanity. I was barely hanging on.

It was at these times that I prayed silently. HE knows.
It was at these times that I called my parents. Just hearing their voices sends a big relief to me.

Never thought that this process could be so hard. Growing up. It's like a nightmare. Although...

Growing up and growing old are 2 different things.

Last post of the semester. Probably the last one in a long time. Gonna have to start doing my work again.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: In the words of Viktor Novorski from "The Terminal".

I WAIT

So Real

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Asslamu'alaikum, everybody!

This song's been stuck in my head for the past couple of weeks. And a few other of his songs too. I've done a few posts about him too and mostly about him replying my tweets. Haha!

Raef is a Muslim-American artist with Awakening Records. The same record label as Maher Zain and Harris J among others. He released an album in 2014, "The Path".

This particular song is quite good. Really upbeat. Have a listen. "So Real" by Raef featuring Maher Zain.

:-)

"They say that love never lasts
That love never lives to see another day
But what I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real
I gave it up all for You
And there ain't nothing that I won't do
All I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real with You!

Chorus:
Allah, everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan
Yes everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan

They say: "You're out of your mind"
"Don't you know that love fades away?"
They say: "It only brings you pain!"
But what I feel is so real!
I gave it up and turned to You
'Cause I know what your love can do
O Allah open up our hearts
And make us feel how it's so real with You!"

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: The only song that COULD be better than this might be "You Are The One"

Volume of Silence

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, y'all!

On my mid semester break right now and I'm telling you, this is probably the 1st time in 7 weeks that I'm actually resting. Things have been crazy, man. Granted, I didn't expecting my 3rd year of degree to be easy but I didn't expect it to be THIS hard either. Put it this way: Just when you finished an assignment tonight, 2 other assignments come at you tomorrow. Just when you finished writing a report, another one slumps on your desk, due the same week.

Although...I really can't say that I'm stoked on finishing college. I bet working is gonna be even more insane. At least in college, you'll get to hear "Today's class is canceled". Good luck getting that news when you start working. A lot of people know this especially those close to me but I ain't sure if I've wrote it here. The idea of doing my masters in Germany has always been appealing. That and backpacking across Europe after degree. Well, keep on dreaming, kid. That ain't gonna happen! Not yet anyway. For multiple reasons.

It just occurred to me lately that I overshare with some people. Yeah, I know it's ironic. Saying that at my own blog, where I sort of write my day-to-day things, and everybody can read it.

But...

Sometimes you just need to vent out all these things you got bottled up inside. Even if you tell you're bestest best friend, he/she might not feel the same way and not reciprocate. In your head, that thing might be important....Sort of 'life-or-death' important. You're friend on the other hand may not share the same sentiment. So sue me if I like venting out.

I have about 14-15 months left of college. A lot of sacrifices must be made......

Physically...Mentally...Emotionally

And quite possibly financially too.

I got 6 days left of my mid sem break. 5 full days. Gonna make the most of it by doing nothing. Haha!

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: Silence speaks volumes than any actions

Do Or Do Not. There Is No Try

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Asslamu'alaikum, everybody!

It's been a freaky 3 weeks into the new semester. A freaky-deaky 3 weeks. Can't say that everything's getting easier when you sorta get the hang of something. In my case, I'm doing engineering. It NEVER gets easy. Not undermining other courses but with me, a guy who loves language, music, the arts, stranded in a world full of numbers and logic, it's pretty tough. But hey, I got the idea of what I was getting myself into so I guess I can't be complaining, eh?

It's been a roller coaster ride from start to finish. IMO, I guess the decisions we make are sort of the things that change us, shape us and setup the things for us in the future. You know what I mean?

Massive congratulations to Leo Di Caprio for FINALLY getting an Oscar!

Look at it this way....

I wanted to to be a cardiologist, do medicine. I think the fact that I had a few arrhythmia attacks at 12 y/o may have been the reason. Luckily for me, someone brainwashed me to not delve into the medicine field. And tbh, one of the best piece of advice ever. Anyway, can you imagine if I DID do medicine? My college experience if I did would've been different if I decided to do it. Hence, the reason I say that the decisions we make setup the things for us in the future.

And I know that Allah S.W.T already had plans for each and everyone of us but just so you know, WE DON'T KNOW. Nobody knows. The plans we make and the choices we pick could either make or break us....

I guess what I'm trying to say is.......................................

Take the leap/plunge

It may not seem like it but I'm getting older, man. I know we're ALL getting older but certain things stick out, you know? You want proof?

Joey (Matt LeBlanc) and Chandler (Matthew Perry) from Friends more than 10 years ago

If someone asks do I feel old yet, I'd say "Hell, yeah".

I'd probably be the last person people come to for advice but here goes.....

If you always wanted to do something or get out of your chest, suck it up and do it. The outcome could be a lot of things but worry and deal with that later. First things first, do what you wanna do. Take that leap of faith and just hope for the best.

I've done it lately and let's just say I'm being optimistic. Not gonna push my luck but all I can say is....

Alhamdulillah

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: What kind of college put their students through classes after 4 p.m??!! It's insane!!

Spartans Never Retreat. Spartans Never Surrender

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, y'all!!

These past few days have been pretty crazy for my heart. When I say that, I mean it goes insane. The suspense of waiting for some things and the patience needed when dealing or communicating with someone. I'm telling you, man, being the youngest in a family is not what people think.

I hate that "the last child always get what they want" statement. Stupid kind of stereotype.

People, I am a self-proclaimed procrastinator. It's a bad thing to be and I'm not proud of it. I can't say that I work well under pressure but hey, it gets the job done. I AM trying to change though. I'm trying to do things earlier, estimate how long it takes to get something done. But as I'm doing that, I was told that I'm thinking too much.

You can never satisfy everyone, can you?

To the next order of business.....

It's been over a year. I've waited for 4 months, give or take. I bided my time even more after I had some work to do. Then I juts thought, "Enough is enough.".

I'm taking the leap.

But then something always seems to be in the way.

The only thing is, whether or not there is any truth behind it. Certain things can't be denied. They should be embraced. And just hope for the best.

I prefer to do it in that way I see is best but with the current situation, I guess the alternative will just have to do.

I'm not waiting 4 months.

Not again.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: Paramore said "Ignorance is your new best friend". But "ignoring" is a whole other story, no?

It Has Its Ups and Downs

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, everybody!

Been about 4 months since the last update. A lot's happened, people. A LOT. But the major ones were basically two.........

Exams were killer, man! Crazy!

After that last Microprocessor and Microcontroller paper, I was just like... "Well, I'm screwed. Meh." Seriously. That's engineering for you.

Anyway, the next order of business after that....SUKIPT 2016.

I lost in the 2nd round against the 3rd seed player who was probably a state/national player. No worries. The experience that counts. Anyway, 2 weeks under the hot sun and it got to me that I got darker. The ring finger tan line was proof enough. 2 weeks with this bunch. Loved it!

But to be honest though, I just feel like ranting. Only for the sake of updating this blog here. And somehow I suddenly have no idea what to write. Writing it sometimes doesn't do it justice. Venting off is best done with someone, where you can blast at him/her. And just keep on doing it till that person falls asleep.

It may not look like it but I got a lot of things on my mind. Some bigger than others and some more significant than most. So if I snap at someone, I apologize in advance.

Due to me being too active in tennis, I can just squeeze about 2 weeks of the semester break and I'm going back in about a week.

Time flies, eh?

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: The signs are there