Tuesday, 28 July 2015

Treading Lightly

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum, everybody

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfiltri Maaf Zahir dan Batin to everyone all over the world.  Hope your celebrations are more awesome than mine.  Haha! I guess I'm too tired to do much and go places that are too far nowadays.

Notice that my Salaam up there has no exclamation mark(s).  There are times when I can jump up and down and crack lame jokes.  There are some times that I wanna scream my head off.  Right now, I'm sort of in between.

Yayasan Pelajaran MARA recently posted an ad for their scholarship program here.  For those who want to continue their studies as a postgraduate, I recommend you check out the link.

Dear parents,

Bear in mind that your children love you very much. We will always ask for your opinion and constantly bug you for advice.  But with all due respect, there are things that we wish to do our own way.  It's like us wanting to play football but you insist on us playing basketball. It's like some kid who aspires to study in the UK but he/she is being told to study in some other country that barely speaks a word of English.  Learning another language to just study in said country is hard as it is and maybe the kid thinks it's a waste of time. And his/her parents insistence on the phrase "You haven't tried, you wouldn't know".

I may not be old enough but I'm not THAT young either. I have to make my own decisions on certain occasions, don't I? (or rather 'can I?').  Granted, I may need some help but after the past year or so, my intentions are pretty clear to those who are close to me.  My wish is that the people around me support it.

To be honest though, what I'm doing here, right now writing this post, is like the equivalent why students copy during their tests/exams.  Afraid to fail and get yelled at.  So I'll just leave it a that I guess.

I wish it's that easy.

See you guys on the flip side

P.S: I'll probably be in hot water for this

Sunday, 5 July 2015


In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamu'alaikum and hi, everyone!!

Happy Ramadhan Mubarak, y'all! Alhamdulillah, another of fasting in this blessed month.

Wow.  It's been almost 6 months since I last updated.  It was a matter of priorities.  It just hit me that degree-level engineering is way tougher.  And also the fact that someone told me to cut down on blogging.  A lot has happened. A LOT..

I think I'll share the worst since my last post.......

On the last week before my finals, I got sick.  At first, I thought, "Meh.  Tak de pape la ni.  Nanti ok la ni.".  And you know what? It wasn't.

Turned out to be a case of suspected dengue.  I guess it should've been obvious though.  I had splitting headaches, abdominal pains, fluctuating body temperature, numb hands.  The works.

Went to the campus clinic and did a blood test and the doc said my platelet and white blood cell count were low.  Sure enough, I got 2 bottles of IV drips going through me.  I got home that day and went to DEMC the next day and did another blood test.  At that time, I felt a lot better.  And you know what? Things got a bit weird.

My platelet count was even lower than the one I did at the campus clinic.  100 something to 70+.  Even the doctor didn't know what was going on.  He even told me to see him again after my finals to see "what's wrong with me".  You see, it's sort of a given to be admitted when it's below 100.  But I got my first final exam paper the next day.  I was persistent.

This was after I got back to UTM.  The amount of comments and well wishes I had was overwhelming considering I rarely get comments/likes/shares from anybody.

I tried studying for the 1st paper.  TRIED.  Then it just occurred to me.......

I always thought of pursuing my studies.  Namely after degree, I wanna do my masters overseas.  But after what happened, I just thought, "I wanna do more.  Not gonna waste my time on this.".  I'm not saying I wanna get wild and party all the time.  I wanna travel the world, meet interesting and fun people.  I've done a little bit of the latter but more on that in another post


Anyway, I'm on my semester break till September 6th.  Productivity ain't my strong suit but it won''t hurt to try.

Btw, Happy Ramadhan Mubarak to everybody who's fasting. Have a good one!

See you guys on the flips side!!

P.S:  I wanted to update for a while now but a little birdie flew into my house and nagged me to do it