Monday, 30 May 2016

The Story So Far

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful


I'm gonna make this post quite short and straight forward since I still got some assignments to do and I wanna take a break for a bit.

At the end of my 3rd year of getting an engineering degree now. So starting from 10th June 2016, I'll have only one year to complete my degree. That is if I don't have any subjects I have to repeat or any other complications. Minta jauh la daripada benda-benda macam tu.

I've been in UTM KL for exactly 5 years now. My 3 years diploma here was alright I guess. But I'm telling you, last week was a whirlwind. It's like all the 5 years being crammed into ONE week and then some. No BS. I had like 2 presentations, 3 tests, a few projects and some assignments. And I had to find a supervisor for my final year project (Alhamdulillah, I found a supervisor). I almost had no sleep. Literally. I went almost 24 hours without sleep.

Some of my freinds/group members saw me smiling and laughing. But they just didn't know. At least they didn't think I was being serious when I said that I feel like going insane.

It was a mentally, physically and emotionally draining week for me. I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell. I wanted to lash out. I wanted to bash someone's head into a wall. Anyone's head. That was how unstable I was.

I was on the brink of insanity. I was barely hanging on.

It was at these times that I prayed silently. HE knows.
It was at these times that I called my parents. Just hearing their voices sends a big relief to me.

Never thought that this process could be so hard. Growing up. It's like a nightmare. Although...

Growing up and growing old are 2 different things.

Last post of the semester. Probably the last one in a long time. Gonna have to start doing my work again.

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: In the words of Viktor Novorski from "The Terminal".