Thursday, 21 July 2016

Search and Destroy

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Assalamu’alaikum, everybody!

Hope it’s not too late to say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all you beautiful people. At least what few that STILL read this anyway. A lot’s been happening, guys. A lot. Some of them are slightly confidential so that’s a no go on that. One thing’s for sure though: I’m SOOOOOO glad the semester’s over! I know it’s been over a month since I finished the semester but still…The relief is like holding it in for hours till you find a bathroom.

Stress nk mampos tau x?!!

Mana x stressnya? Killer subjects ada 3, all 3 subjects ada kena buat project. And there’s this one subject, they made it like a competition. Build a robot to climb a bunch of stairs. Japanese and English classes AND assignments AND projects lagi. That’s not even the best part. Almost all of the projects have to be submitted the week before our finals. Mind you, we don’t have a study week. I’ll get to that later. By the time we submitted our last assignment, I’m telling you, it was like having a boulder lifted off of our shoulders. Sort of… Exam habis baru rasa lega.

I’m currently doing my industrial training/practical. So goodbye, semester break. Which is why we didn’t have a study week. The only upside from this is that the place is really near my house.
I hope all of this is worth it. Don’t get me wrong, a good education IS important. I just think the things students do ALONG the way to get that friggin’ scroll is more often than not ridiculous. I guess it’s inevitable eh?

Already 1 days of Raya. Time goes by really quick, innit? Pejam celik, puasa. Pejam celik, raya. Makes you think though..At least it makes ME think. What plans do I have next? Kalau nak ikutkan I have my plans already. Nak execute tu je can be a real pain in the arse. I say that because we’re gonna have to sacrifice a lot of stuff. I prayed and asked for something once..And it was a long time ago…

True story…

At the time, I was in a rough place, a particularly hard time in my short almost-23-years. A position where some of them were self-inflicted but most of them were results of people inflicting them ON me. So the “true story” part is that I prayed and asked to be away from my enemies. To let my enemies steer clear away from me as far as possible. Then you know what happened?
I lost some friends. I don’t mean lost macam ada yang mati. I mean we just drifted. And some of them did things. Things that you never thought could happen to you. Things you never thought THEY would do to you.

(X sure kalau ada yang terasa sebab I doubt people read here anymore but if ada yang terasa, lantak la. I might not be talking about you pun).

And so my circle of friends turned into a semicircle. Then it morphed to a size of a slice of pie. Now it’s more like a small dot. And later it just dawned on me: Those enemies I asked to steer clear away from me earlier were my friends.

To quote Gabriel Iglesias, “I’m a decent guy. I’m not great, I’m not terrible. I’m decent”. I love meeting people. And I like listening to people’s stories. It helps me in many ways. Sometimes I’m not sure if I should be picky in the friends department. What I’m trying to say is, sometimes sacrificing certain things are unavoidable. In my case, I never thought I was gonna sacrifice ties with people. Nak buat mcm mana kan? Have to wait and find what’s in store then.
Could be something unexpected. Since the latest occurrence was MYSELF doing the unexpected – and it just blew up in my face – I’m gonna wait and just hope for the best.

I got one more year of studying. Haishhh. -____________-“

Anyway, I’m sort of halfway through my industrial training. Sikit je lagi. I’ve done half. I can do another half. Let’s do this!

See you guys on the flip side!!

P.S: There’s no reason we can’t civil